Experienced girl introduces male friend to love & sex.
"That male part, Brent, is furious still that this happened. He's muttering that I deserved it. It's how we've always been, why change? But the other part of me, not the woman, but me, understands why you did it. And I have no words to apologize with. Because that was hyper-realistic to me, and I can still feel his hands on me. I'm going to have nightmares for a long time to come, and I know I deserve it."
"No. You don't." Cass interjected. "Nobody, guy or girl, deserves to be raped. It's violating, and it will eat you up from the inside out. Honestly, I didn't bank on such a strong vision for you. You're the first person in the history of our coven to have a dream where you felt everything. To be frank, you're probably going to have some PTSD from it, and for that, I do apologize. We don't want you to struggle with it, but on the other hand, if that's what the universe demands in payment for your crimes, then so be it."
Sighing, I rubbed my hands over my face, regret running through my veins like ice. I can't believe that I had done that to other girls. To put them through such a horrible experience? Yeah, I can see where everyone is coming from on why I deserve this, now. And if that's just one of many things that I've done, where is this path going to lead me? To a lifetime full of regret? Shaking my head, I filed that away to be dealt with at a later time. Right now, there was something that needed to be done.
"Cassandra, I have a request to ask of you. And I know I'm not in a position to make requests, but I ask that you hear me out."
When she inclined her head, I continued.
"I know she probably doesn't want to talk to me after what I did. But...if you could find Tara and pass along a message to her. Let her know I want to talk to her, to apologize. I know that she won't want to at first, and I don't want her to feel pressured. But I feel that the least I can do is an apology. I know I need to go above and beyond that, and I'm not sure how I'll do that, but for now, I hope this works."
Cass surprised me with a smile. "Tara knows what happened to you. She was actually the first person to offer her support when she heard."
My head jerked back in surprised. "She what? Why?! Even after what I did to her?"
Another voice sounded from behind Cassandra.
"Because, I've learned to forgive you for what you've done to me, and I know exactly how you're feeling right now."
Cass moved aside to let another girl into the bathroom. She was a tiny girl, about as tall as me, but slender. Where I was all curves and boobs, she was lean muscle. Her brunette hair was shaved on both sides of her head, with a long flop on top. I felt my heart sink.
"I heard what happened." She said with a sad smile. Her voice had a light, country twang to it that made me think of wheat filled fields and jars of tea. "I thought I'd come up and see how you were doing."
I remembered her alright, and I felt terrible for not recognizing her at first. We had met my sophomore year, and I was instantly attracted to her. She had an almost fairy like appearance, and I had a thing for short girls. Eh, explains why I'm short, now that I think about it. We had 'hit' it off instantly, but in reality, I just wanted to fuck her. And I did.
Memories of that night came flooding back, and I realized with horror that it was an almost mirrored replica of my dream. I had raped her, violently. Oh my god, what have I done?
Getting up, I walked slowly to her, my head down in shame. When I reached her, I surprised both of us by wrapping my arms gently around her.
"There are no words to convey how sorry I am." I whispered, my voice shaking. "I can't even begin to describe how much I regret what I did. I am so, so sorry for destroying you like that. There isn't an excuse in the world that I can give you to justify it, and I won't even try. I'm so sorry, Tara."
After a moment, I felt her arms hug me as well, and I felt a sob wrack her body.